Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Courage

Wallord walks through the hidden forest, reaching for the end of it. Behind him, there's Carmel.
"I have a feeling, Wallord."
"What feeling?"
"I'm about giving up."
"I'm about, too."
"But, this feeling is different. I don't think I can make it."
Wallord stops. He look back to Carmel.
"What is it?"
"I don't think I can make it. And even I can make it, I don't think I'll stay with you."
"Why?"
"I don't have as much courage as you."
"I will always next to you. You're going to make it, no matter what."
"I don't want it."
"A feeling will rotten you. Get over it."
"It's okay if I have to die, Wallord."
"Stop it!"
"I'm giving up. I won't walk anymore."
"STOP IT!"
"I'M READY TO DIE!"
"THEN DIE WHEN THE DEATH IS COMING, NOT BECAUSE YOU INVITE IT."
"I don't want to take you with me. Please, leave me."
"CARMEL!"
"LEAVE ME!"
"A falling of friend, I would not allow it."
"You should! This is my own. My decision."
"Where will you go if we're just about to arrive to finish line."
"I don't know. My eyes, my heart, and hope are all gone."
"Don't do it to yourself."
"Why should I? It's already there."
"How can I help you to not giving up?"
"Well, you keep walking, will you? Remember our good memories."
"Have a courage, Carmel."
"No one needs a coward. It's effecting people around them."
"Let me be clear...."
"If I don't make it, someone will."
"WHO'S GONNA BE?"
"SOMEONE! SOMEONE OUT THERE, YOU WILL MEET AND FIND."
"NO! I WILL KEEP REMEMBER HOW FOOL I WAS TO LET YOU GO."
"THEN STOP JUDGE YOURSELF TO BE FOOL BECAUSE OF ME!"
"THEN STOP BEING SUCH A COWARD!"
"Leave me, now!"
"Don't be a stubborn, Carmel. I will not leave you."
"You know what? You're just become a cancer to me."
"What?"
"A cancer. That will suffer my heart, my soul. Because I made a very big mistake as you said."
"You still can make it, Carmel."
"Don't touch me. Don't you dare to touch me."
"End it with me, then. At least, until we see the light, again."
"Until then?"
"I will be next to you. I will stay with you, until we reach to the light."
"I am a traitor, why you keep me with you?"
"You deserve a second chance."
"The second chance, is by just taste it, I'm already be happiest person."
"You need an ambition!"
"It makes me anxious. Leave me. There's nothing you can do with me."
"Do you not know?"
"What?"
"Aren't you suppose to be by my side?"
Carmel cried.
"Have a reason, you said. I am your reason. I will give you a promise. I'm the one who will lift your despair, right now. I will be your smile. I will be your reason to take another steps so you'll find what ends of this forest."
Wallord hugs Carmel.
"Milady."



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