July Bones

I will make a real book in 2020.

For a person like me, love just needs to be careful. I hate to see people think I like the hard way to get such true love. But, this world has showed me it's no longer there. True love for me. It's just a play of understanding, knowing, and then get along. Nothing further. No one told me it's my fault to keep that perspective too long. Until, everything just passing by and keep going by. And me, left behind. Getting hurt and hurting back by mistake or on purpose. Love supposed to be clumsy. Love is not perfect. I should've realized it. Nothing can help me until I see that nothing is right when you fall in love. Like when you thought you can love someone and wait for something in return. Not just wait but to see if love is truly real. Not just protection but real affection. Not just one-sided. It's hurting to learn it's only me who keeps acting I am not okay. But when I fall or fail, And, I can't be the one who needs to only understand. ...

"Your name is now Sun Wook. Baek Sun Wook." That's all I could remember about my childhood. To be now living as a chaebol's heir and running great kingdom of entertainment market, people pretending to love me so they could get my affectionate. But, there is nothing I could do. I used to walk to the house I once lived but not somuch memories. Something happened, I know. An accident. I got a big scar under my hair. It killed my parents. That's all I know. My Grandfather took me. He loved his only daughter so much, but he never really accepting her marriage with my father. He was never in my memory, too. He just there when I ended up alone at the foster house. I was 12 years old. It's been twenty years and tonight is the party of me be the first President of the company. My grandfather has decided to finally retired. I wasn't really wish he would ever do that. I could only wish I would repay my debt to him. Without him, I might now end up alone. But, ...

Saki is meeting Jyo in a bar. It’s just like smiling to one another from far. Then, they met again. Saki learned Jyo is a street model. Saki saw a photoshoot among the crowd, then she left back to office in the building. Jyo saw her. But, they thought it was just the end. They met for third time out the city. But it's not the one she looking for.  His name is Gon. Gon has tempermental issue. He just keeps confusing and angry at everyone. Saki hates Gon the moment they met. But, Saki couldn't stop looking at Gon. He looks like Jyo. Gon is a player but since Saki came, he starts to fall into Saki. Later, Saki was seeing Gon and just like right time, Gon truly in love. Saki thought she finally happy. It’s just, that third time, she met again with Jyo was the time she’s in relationship with Gon. Jyo just passing by and he straight to run cross the street and came to her.   Jyo promised to himself that he won't let go Saki if they mee...

This is the memory of us. If you forget them, it’s alright.  I am going to remind it to you. “Juutaro Matsuda?” Rae was looking for the student who supposed to pair in this game. Juu was sleeping in the field with his manga and hid his face. Juu woke up and saw this girl.  He knew this girl.  He never thought he could get chance to finally know her.  They have to be pair up for this evening screaming night.    But, everyone knows Midore Akabana, Rae, is Daichi Kyose’s girlfriend.         Midore, Rae, she’s really nice person and devoted girlfriend, she’s sincerely doing everything for Daichi. But, no one really know Daichi except he’s always busy studying for medical school. Rae, always be seen by Juu as that girl he wanted to know since middle school. But, it was just a normal Sunday at time, Juu was going to festival and ask Rae, but he saw Daichi and his nerd boys came to Rae and they both became history...

An open letter for Her. If you read this. I hate it. I really care about you. You are the most beautiful and wonderful person I have ever met. I hurt you and I am really sorry. I didn't mean but the universe has settled our journey.  If you read this. The reason I didn't contact you ever because it is my mistaken. I can't keep promises. Jus like with other girls, I realized ... I put you as other girl. I feel bad. I kept lying and you kept forgiven me. Yet, we are not in real relationship. I hate myself to blame you pushing me into being someone not me at all. Or maybe you just want to let me be myself the one I had let it go long time as my circle wouldn't let me to be. Again, it's hurting me either way. If you read this. Please, keep read this. I thought to keep up with you will make me happy. It is not going to happen because you are not the reason at all. Yet, that true reason never shows up.  If you read this. If I have been hurting you a lot. I am really sorry...

"You are never have a happy life!" "You're right!" "People always cut you off in the middle of the road." "That's true!" "And you have no friends." "I know..." "See, you are such pathetic and sad person, ever." "Thank you to remind me." "But in this bar, you are very welcome, Miss Feelsgood." "I love this bar. You given people some fake IDs and listen our problems." "As long as you keep throw us your money." "I only have been a day and my money hasn't been waste at all, Sir!" "Then, please be our loyal customer, Miss Feelsgood!"  "I will!!!" In this bar, all customers get their own fake IDs. They would get personal butler. And here I am, stand in front of the building. Looking at the video review on Youtube. It seems really feel good to be not myself and can be serve like a real human for once. "Ah! ...

A horror story idea.  What if it’s a story about the curse. There’s the path of curse of the hellgate. And the curse starts when you’re seeing someone dragged into the hellgate.   I think it’s pretty simple, right? Once you saw one, you got the mark which is getting worse that you can't see but people around you. What you would see is these symptoms  The first symptom would be some nightmares, the pictures of hellgate traumatize your memories and consume your dreams. The second symptom that you would be more religious than before, learning what’s the hellgate all about. You are getting curious and the mistakes start right here because It’s starting to profiling of which kind of person that gets drag into hellgate and you will learn the history of the curse. Third symptom would be trying to figure it out how to stop the hellgate’s dreams. By trying to do good things or asking forgiveness as if you’re about to die. Until it consumed your perspective and personali...

To be raised by the lone King of Nine realms. One is my realm, the Beast Land. The reign on Powerful Wizard and King Geof. Second is the ghost realm, the Nebula. They owned the skies and rule by the Mist. Third is the under water, the Deep Seas. The reign of King Neptiri, beautiful merman ever live. Fourth is the realm of Dwarves. Their stories have becometh the great legend and most sorrow on the mountains. Fifth is the Earth realm. The living of men and forbidden for all realms to cross over. Sixth is the hell realm, the Underworld. They who not fear the eternal fire live there. Seventh is the Heaven. They who known are gods in their lifes live forever there. Eighth is the Emerald City. Green Stone realm, I call it for all stones there worth to create power of nine realms. Ninth is the Eternal Frost Mountains. The realm which can stops the time.  My father, my guardian, my lord. Conquered them all. In the Beast Land, he raised me. I,...

It was real. I had it last night. I didn't realize I have been on deep third layer and it was so scary. It had me thinking if I didn't know I almost got stucked on my own dream world, this dream world seems dangerous and totally was trying to never let you wake up. I always thought that the demon had been trying to take my life while I slept. I had this problem, it's just I can not deny my deep consciousness has somekind cool personality as an exorcist expert? It's just like an automatic-mode, when the demon pops on my dream, my consciousness praying Our Father and somekind of The Conjuring bravery act-thing. Well, mostly it didn't work, I ended keep stuck and face the demon, until I figured it's only a dream and I woke up. Interest thing, just at one time case, I tricked the way and made my own plot of dream as if well like Insidious thing, I started running around on my dream world. The dream world, as what we have seen on Inception, pretty much the world...

I had a very horror dream last night. It was about a family decided to buy one old apartment building. It almost like they spend their whole money to that building. There was this Chinese restaurant on the front of the lobby. The old man owned the restaurant seemed very angry at the family on the day they're moving-in. The family started to see each of room and they were all studio room size. One of the child actually really interested with the architecture and interior design so she documented most of the rooms. Oddly, she seemed had sensing people were still living inside those empty apartment rooms, like moving shadows. On the next morning, the old man, the owner of that Chinese restaurant still opening in front of the lobby of apartment and the Father started on conversation with him but the family just stayed inside without knowing what were they talking. The youngest child actually started to play with the shadows in the apartment. When the sister caught her, turns out ...

I can live my life thousands times more Be a different person each world Hurt and endure Hating myself at the end and do it all over again I will love you with all my life Be the one for you each world Caring and patience Grown old to die at the end and do it all over again I stop dreaming about you For I love to you too much I don't know how forget you I don't know if we can live another time I stop wishing you all well For I am no longer in your mind But again even we meet in another life I will always love you I can not let you go as I am now letting you let go of me I am not that strong as you are strongly leaving me I don't know what I want as you know really what you want If I am your poison If this world has killed you because of me I will do it all over again That's how much I love you But I know I can't reach you anymore This time only one time I can't wish for another lifetime For we only live once And here I am a...

Living around the Royals and politic are not really fun. As the Second son of Baron, literally I have to work hard to earn my place at the King’s court. For example, I would do anything for my brother and let him be my greatest friend in the world. It was fucking hard at first. I almost got poisoned, almost got killed on the street, and even so he could surivived at war, I was there thrown my own body for any daggers or sword who coming at him. Luckily, he bought all that and like a spoiled son, he introduced me to most of Lords he knows. I earned some ranks on miliatry and politic, somehow I becoming favourite. My brother, which always be my insurance, whatever things he done embarrased even, I have to stand for him. Somehow, it effects me on judge anything or to do anything at the Palace, for what I am done would effect my brother’s presence. King Highness Alexander recognized me when we fought together at Roxan War. I never talked or do anything with King Highness so far but we ...