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Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Questions

Who can answer this question? To whom should I ask? Where does all this puzzle come from? Should I look for the answer? Can I wait for a time to answer? Would I finally find that answer?

Edward and Me

Last night We were just friends.

Cry

At the one of room 1614 should have two guests but I am alone. Play a mellow tune to set the mood, my body is weak and hurt on feelings. If I am not sentimental I would become as devil so here I pour them all. A gold is not silent but silent is punishment. The threat of my existance. I want to jump. Jump to the cliff and end the whole story all over again. A whole blackhole and no end. No more end. Just more enemies. What would path of escape can I get? Where is the comfort? Where is my promise? I love for what future? 

Wait

"Come on. We are going to be late!" He is about to meet with his friends. But he seems nervous.  I am nervous. He needs to get back to his room. "What else do you look for?" "I am looking for something. Maybe you should go on first?" That time I actually walked few steps from him but suddenly it devastated me.  And,  I stop. "I will wait for you." Then, he keeps busy with his searching,  "Alright. Just wait for me." he said. He then found what he got and shouts, "Let's go! " he put his hand on my hip.  But it does not discomfort me. I lingered my hand on his back. "I know you are going wait for me." "I won't hesitate." The more I think about this dream he was my soulmate. My mind wants to tell me I might have found him. He was close to me. Yet, I just need to wait. One last time. Every day.