July Bones

Satu hal terahasiakan dalam cerita ini. Ucapan pun tak bisa menggambarkannya. Satu foto itu saja yang mampu menggambarkan satu cerita secara keseluruhan. Bahkan foto itu mampu membawanya bercahaya. Aku tidak memilikinya, karena aku berlari pergi menjauhi foto itu. Cahayanya aku dapat bayangkan. Mungkin saat aku melihatnya, nanti pada akhirnya, cahaya itu seperti begitu hangat dan lembut di kulitku. Cahaya itu pasti mampu membuatku menangis. Foto itu adalah rahasia dari segala hal yang dapat kuceritakan. Tapi aku tidak memilikinya, karena aku begitu takut untuk memilikinya. Cahaya dalam foto itu, saat ini begitu redup dan kehilangan arah tujuan keberadaan foto itu. Ucapan pun tak bisa memaafkan diriku sendiri, hati ku yang berusaha mencari di mana aku dapat menemukan foto itu dan pikiran ku yang berusaha menentang keberadaannya. Cahaya yang seharus berpendar indah terasa seperti cahaya petir yang mampu merengut seluruh tarian dan mimpiku, hanya dalam sekejab.  Aku tidak ingin foto i

They're the kind that want her to become what they want her to be. by telling them what to wear, how to have their hair styled, how they act.  They don't respect her the way she should be respected.  Even though she's comfortable around other guys and has no problem playing with their emotions a tiny bit when she doesn't have affectionate feelings towards them But with the guy she's feeling for is around,  she doesn't know what to do, is afraid to do anything, and just freezes.  She's afraid of speaking up, fearing that something horrible would happen  She hates feeling that way She loves to tease guys mess around with their heads a little bit and doesn't have trouble being around them.  She starts having feelings for a guy and it scares her a bit.  She wants to dress up, gussy herself up and be more womanly for him,  She wants to impress him.  She starts feeling nervous and giddy around him. She decides and tries to play it off and be h

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Failed for being a friend Failed to take all being slowly Then regrets came to my dreams And that is when I was a fool To push things far behind Or even run away from the front Then needs became missing so much And that is when I was a fool And what I have become, now? I ask and beg for some more Screaming out loud to got choked Empty hugs and empty laughters Done nothing and being fool So sad, so can not smile So blur, so can not see So deep, so can not feel Curious then cry with all my heart Never lies but the road leads nowhere Who would have believed That it's part of my dream Nothing's real, nothing's wise When I was a fool Seems light was years away When I was a fool Seems to leave was the last choice And rains and lone street are friends Dance floor and beat of songs guiding Random people are family And the night is my lover I'm finding it hard to do anything I thought the dream will not let me go I wish I can put all things