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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Glow

Satu hal terahasiakan dalam cerita ini. Ucapan pun tak bisa menggambarkannya. Satu foto itu saja yang mampu menggambarkan satu cerita secara keseluruhan. Bahkan foto itu mampu membawanya bercahaya. Aku tidak memilikinya, karena aku berlari pergi menjauhi foto itu. Cahayanya aku dapat bayangkan. Mungkin saat aku melihatnya, nanti pada akhirnya, cahaya itu seperti begitu hangat dan lembut di kulitku. Cahaya itu pasti mampu membuatku menangis. Foto itu adalah rahasia dari segala hal yang dapat kuceritakan. Tapi aku tidak memilikinya, karena aku begitu takut untuk memilikinya. Cahaya dalam foto itu, saat ini begitu redup dan kehilangan arah tujuan keberadaan foto itu. Ucapan pun tak bisa memaafkan diriku sendiri, hati ku yang berusaha mencari di mana aku dapat menemukan foto itu dan pikiran ku yang berusaha menentang keberadaannya. Cahaya yang seharus berpendar indah terasa seperti cahaya petir yang mampu merengut seluruh tarian dan mimpiku, hanya dalam sekejab.  Aku tidak ingin foto itu…

Defenseless

They're the kind that want her to become what they want her to be.
by telling them what to wear, how to have their hair styled, how they act. 
They don't respect her the way she should be respected. 
Even though she's comfortable around other guys and has no problem playing with their emotions a tiny bit
when she doesn't have affectionate feelings towards them
But with the guy she's feeling for is around, 
she doesn't know what to do, is afraid to do anything, and just freezes. 
She's afraid of speaking up, fearing that something horrible would happen 
She hates feeling that way

She loves to tease guys
mess around with their heads a little bit and doesn't have trouble being around them. 
She starts having feelings for a guy and it scares her a bit. 
She wants to dress up, gussy herself up and be more womanly for him, 
She wants to impress him. 
She starts feeling nervous and giddy around him.
She decides and tries to play it off and be her typical self
She was had love…

In The Eyes

Kita bermain dengan dunia
Dunia mempermainkan kita

Kita bermain dengan kekasih
Kekasih mempertanyakan kita

Kita bermain dengan harapan
Harapan menggantungkan kita

Kita bermain dengan tatapan
Tatapan menantang kita

Gambar-gambar yang terbang
Aku kehilangan arah

Suara-suara yang melayang
Kepercayaan terus menguap

Bau-bau yang mengelilingi
Semuanya bertahan di sana

Memecahkan semua barang
Lalu aku melihat mu lagi

Beling-beling berserakan
Aku berdiri tak bergerak

Berjalan pergilah
Dan hatiku menjadi tenang

Biar semua runtuh perlahan
Dan aku mulai melupakan

Sama ingin pergi
Lalu kembali mencari

Saling mendorong
Tapi juga saling bertahan
Tanpa akhir
Tanpa lelah

Tanpa rasa
Tanpa suara

Bukan milik siapapun
Tarian dan mimpi ku

Dunia mempermainkan
Kekasih mempertanyakan
Harapan menggantungkan
Tatapan menantang

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Kututup mataku
Kegelapan melindungi ku

Kubuka mataku
Lalu aku melihat mu lagi

Bukan milik mu
Tarian dan mimpiku

Tanpa rasa
Tanpa suara

Aku berhenti melangkah
Dan aku mulai melupakan

Berjalan pergilah
Aku berdiri tak bergerak

Keperca…

When I Was A Fool

Failed for being a friend
Failed to take all being slowly
Then regrets came to my dreams
And that is when I was a fool

To push things far behind
Or even run away from the front
Then needs became missing so much
And that is when I was a fool

And what I have become, now?
I ask and beg for some more
Screaming out loud to got choked
Empty hugs and empty laughters
Done nothing and being fool

So sad, so can not smile
So blur, so can not see
So deep, so can not feel

Curious then cry with all my heart
Never lies but the road leads nowhere
Who would have believed
That it's part of my dream
Nothing's real, nothing's wise

When I was a fool
Seems light was years away
When I was a fool
Seems to leave was the last choice

And rains and lone street are friends
Dance floor and beat of songs guiding
Random people are family
And the night is my lover

I'm finding it hard to do anything
I thought the dream will not let me go
I wish I can put all things to the trash
But life still goes on,…