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One Last Time

an idea: you are a bulletproof girl. Amanda Beth is a common girl, like many common girls. She's being loved by everyone and being hate by some people, too. Amanda is a high school girl with even lower average skills. We have to admit not everyone's smart and not everyone have to be good. So, Amanda gets into a genk, so tho she's stupid, she is saved, not being in bully around the school. She's one of the bully. But, that's not her. Whenever her bad friends are leaving her alone, she's trying to be friend with the bullied ones. She's helping the victims like in ninja ways. As I told you before, she's being loved by everyone, too, right? Amanda is helping them with spreading good things about them rather than against her own friends when the bullying's around. She's doing that for win-win solution and seriously, no ones really feel bad about it. Everyone needs her, but inside of Amanda, she thinks herself as a coward. who thinks
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Mercy

Why love is overwhelming? Why love is blind? Why do love keeps by my side and I know love is there but why can't I see it? Why this love is so deep, more than I can stand, but makes me far from peace. Why love keeps demanding? Why do I need to beg of love? Why love is overwhelming and yet, love is like ghost? Why if love keeps hiding yet love left some memories? Why the memories so overwhelming? Why it feels so alone when love's gone? Why this alone just overwhelming, too? When will it stop?  If to stop then love be far away and it's in my fault to keep a distance, why do I need mercy from love? I am scared but I love, is that even called as love? All I want to do is to love. Say do I have the mercy just for to love? Do I?

Come and Find Me

I am in beautiful pain. Live in dream world. I am into this deep slumber. It is so dark. I am not kind. I have no courage. My eyes keep closing. Why can't I see you? What should I do? Come and find me, sun. Tell me you need me. Show me the light, again. Give me the warm It is getting cold, here. Tell me I do no wrong. If I wake up, I see you. I am coming and to follow you Come and find me.

I am in the Safest Place

It is hard for me too breathe I fall asleep so I can breathe I was trapped in this dream I was free in this dream Shout without sound Cry without tears They made me They created me Lost in labyrinth Rotten

Half A World Away

All this time I thought I was where I was. I had given my best. For those who are not for me.   Turns out, love will never be there for me. But for those who give only things that are hard to get. I better stand far away.   At least I know who I like to be.