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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Me: Introduction on a Snap

"Do not be afraid to fail, do not be tired to try, because experience is the best teacher to achieve maturity and success of life." Thus the motto of life Aurora.He enjoys watching movies and music.Not only that, the girl born in Jakarta, July 11, 1992 is also has hobby of reading books and writing novels.

The Windy Days

A story of a young girl who thinks her fiance has back but it is another doppelganger of her man who accidentally fell in love with her too. It was on a bridge and very windy, the young girl sitting on this seat and that man just jogging and took break on same seat. The young girl was shocked and she's crying then hug him.

That man didn't know what to do because he don't know her and so he was about to leave yet the girl surely think it's her fiance. For that man comes to her life, she is being accused file a false report of her fiance's death. The young girl decided to keep away from that man but every time she recalls her memories with her fiance, she is running to find and reach that man, and the man takes it time to learn how the girl would finally love her unconditionally.

The young girl works as administration support of this law firm while that man works as a musician. Her fiance was a doctor. The young girl believes one day she at least could see the ghost…

Me and Him

The more I think about it, then it must to talk about.

I'm not a smart person. I gave up my real wish of future living and still feeling guilty every time.
The reason I'm writing this because I know my time is running out. It would still be like this. The world wants me to keep feel down, to keep fall and hurt, to put me back to uncertain cliffhanger end.

I want to be a happy person but I think my life would never be that happy. Some people said it's ridiculous to not be happy, it's the easiest way to earn. Well, it is not for me.
Is God make a fool of me?

I want to believe in Him. I want to see His vision in me. I want to keepbelieve in Him. To believe in Him is the only purpose I live now. The reason why I keep alive right now is because of Him. I don't have anyone, I don't have anewhere to go.
But then, why does He keep make me feel like this?

I want to be a diplomat.. I want it to be true. Since I have given up the only one thing I really wish could  happe…

On The Shelf

Dear Lord,

I am here to surround my woe to Your Chamber.
I am stepping to the courtyard, my feet have walked through it.
Now I'm on the porch, stand right front the door.
Wishing for what's inside would out and get me.

Dear Lord,
Lift me up with Your Hands for let me touch Your Grace.
Set me free from the dazed, help me to be precise.
I am willing and I am waiting.
Talk, then I will recover.

Dear Lord,
Save me.

Never Enough

Claim my space in you
Eyes, lips, or hips
Let me know the move
Feet, hands, and head
Funny word of closer
How my hair you mess
It's feeling that you want
Intimate to lust


I feel hungry
But I don't want to eat
I am thirsty
But no drink please

Slowly I turn back
Make sweet posing
Thought you might like
How you'd capture me

Someone like you
Falling to me
Awkward and raw
Troubled and hurt

This is how I want to be
Encourage me please
Tell me I need to be here
and you belong to me

Around Girl: The Red Shoes

Kram was walking to Day. Day was surrounded by people around this garden party. Kram brought a plate of food and helping Day to fix the table. They both were really happy. Being normal couple, that’s what happened between Kram and Day. That’s the way Jow Marlace could help Day out from her misery. Day forgot about Avengers and everything. Again. Day was helping Kram on his open house party. Kram is back to the stage and joining a new ballet show, Red Shoes. It’s a story of how a girl really loves her new red dancing shoes and suddenly the shoes put her to keep dancing until someone decided to chop her feet. Day seemed really happy and she’s continue her passion on cooking and make desserts. This is her catering works. Meanwhile, whenever Day found Jow around her, she actually decided to leave all her doings and start to chat with Jow. Actually, it puts everyone in wonder. Who’s actually Day really love? Kram or Jow? It happened again. Jow came and greetings Kram. Day was still not seein…

Rings (2017) is Not Good

Many people whenever they're being asked, "What's your favourite horror movie?" and they would tell many great list of best horror movies on history, while I'm going to simply answer, "The Ring America remake." I know that's lame. I watched the America remake first then the original Japanese version. Well, the Japanese version plot was so absurd and I hard to digest, at that time like I was still young. Well, now, the only Japanese version I like is Ringu 0. The first time I watched Ringu 0, it had same reaction as while I watched the other Japanese versions, but it was the only version I couldn't get it and kept watching it until now I'm totally get it. *Well, that's my thing. I'm curious with my own preference of films. It's like my head could see how good is a film but when I saw it first time I was disappointed. But then my heart told me to keep see it and suddenly I found the why.*
Rings (2017)  was not as same as special f…

July & Greg: Third Season

So, the opening won’t be with dream but with reality. July came and sat across of Greg.  I mean that will be so fresh start. As we thought July showed up in front of Greg was not a dream.  Greg couldn’t handle the truth that he really missed her and that night he really wished he could forgive her. They’re making love that night but in middle of night, Greg woke up and didn’t dream anything. So, he just realized things would gone different. July came back because of Dame’s news. July went to see Dame and she never thought someone actually could put this demon into its place. Dame responded as she was missing her, too. Yet, July said all this time she had researched alone about Dame’s past and she finally gets closer to the key. Dame was triggered but she challenged July if she has bravery to do it. July had decided to get better and took a different path.  She promised to Greg. Somehow Greg gave her a second chance. The moment July back, Sarah was really happy. But we all know, things c…

Off The Hook

"How is your feeling, now?" asked John.
"It's hard for me to say, John. How can I describe it? A way I couldn't be with someone I love anymore?" "You're doing a great job, Iris." "Thanks to you, John." Iris suddenly hugged John, "You moved me. You did the bravest thing I've been afraid to do it for such a long time." "Iris, you just did it. It's over now." "Yeah. I'm okay." "You are brave, Iris" he whispered. But, John learned she’s not speaking anymore, "No, no," John looked back to Iris's face, "Don't cry again." John wiped her tears. "I... I wasn't a good person." "You are, you are. You are better than me, even" said him. "I'm a coward, she told me and it's true." John hugged me again, "Hush...." "It broke my heart and I couldn't let go that misery. What she told me and how I've been improved since…

July and Greg: Big Sketch

Hello! So, here's my big sketch of what I want to develop on July and Greg story a.k.a. Dame Series.

J&G: A Way Back
          Greg was passing out on that party and went to hospital, so Greg’s family decided to take him back to his hometown. Greg will met his old friends, same as Jake, they thought Greg was going to die but it was all just hoax. Later, Greg got new job, new tv shows, and things go pretty well, until Greg met a new assistant, a girl. She’s giving a hints about Greg seeing ghosts and somehow it end up with these two jobs he chose which one he should pick. One of them would lead him to the woman he love and the woman he hurt. Then, Greg chose this photography, then, he met Dame again, on the same building and luckily it was not her but July Bryce.
J&G: Tears Falling           Everything about her on his dream just came back and kept repeating as he tried to know if things in his dream was from the past or maybe it’s a future like premonition. But, in this case …

My First Drawing for the First Time



The most quiet guy I’ve ever met in my dream. For I never told him but he discovered me. On gloomy days and streets not so crowd. I went out, I walked, and crossed the path. We met while I at the corner. He stood as he’d been waiting all along. I think we spent the whole time in silent. I think I told him it was my dream. He might not familiar with all these. This gray world and hidden darkness.
And he met me as if I belong here. It might not scare him, it might put him in danger. He was smart.
He learned the labyrinth. Even he found my weakness. Feels like he went through all my bookshelves. Yet on this place, he would never be safe. My unconscious was hunting him.
Swallow. The word to describe how he being taken. He found how worried I was. Like, “The safest place is get back where you belong.” But I didn’t know how. He stuck here because of me. “I think I found the way out.” He only touched my shoulders. He led me. We end up in sport hall. His idea to bring himself back. By bring his own labyrinth. “Wait…