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One Last Time

an idea: you are a bulletproof girl. Amanda Beth is a common girl, like many common girls. She's being loved by everyone and being hate by some people, too. Amanda is a high school girl with even lower average skills. We have to admit not everyone's smart and not everyone have to be good. So, Amanda gets into a genk, so tho she's stupid, she is saved, not being in bully around the school. She's one of the bully. But, that's not her. Whenever her bad friends are leaving her alone, she's trying to be friend with the bullied ones. She's helping the victims like in ninja ways. As I told you before, she's being loved by everyone, too, right? Amanda is helping them with spreading good things about them rather than against her own friends when the bullying's around. She's doing that for win-win solution and seriously, no ones really feel bad about it. Everyone needs her, but inside of Amanda, she thinks herself as a coward. who thinks
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

2020: Another Series and One Last Time Project

I will make a real book in 2020.

Two Times

For a person like me, love just needs to be careful. I hate to see people think I like the hard way to get such true love. But, this world has showed me it's no longer there. True love for me. It's just a play of understanding, knowing, and then get along. Nothing further. No one told me it's my fault to keep that perspective too long. Until, everything just passing by and keep going by. And me, left behind. Getting hurt and hurting back by mistake or on purpose. Love supposed to be clumsy. Love is not perfect. I should've realized it. Nothing can help me until I see that nothing is right when you fall in love. Like when you thought you can love someone and wait for something in return. Not just wait but to see if love is truly real. Not just protection but real affection. Not just one-sided. It's hurting to learn it's only me who keeps acting I am not okay. But when I fall or fail, And, I can't be the one who needs to only understand.