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As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

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In my dream, there was a family. Dad, Mom, and their only daughter. I didn't really remember but while Mom was working, Dad was using drugs at home. And, it's like Dad is the narrator and telling about the life as flew out from his body. Their daughter was only a daughter. And, somehow she was seeing her Dad using it. Or, she didn't know what really happen. Then, Dad was falling to the floor, and OD. And, at this time I don't remember, thinking what exactly happened after that. But, I still could see some pictures in my memory, the way Dad still narrating that he's not OD, he fell asleep and high. Then, he thought he was fine. Dad started a new day at the time. He tried to work things out and make his family happy. Then, it's getting better and better, until Dad realized it's just his wishes and he was the truth in Heaven. He did not see it coming. That he died. And, I think he talked to God. Then, things got better. God said he is not dead, yet. And...