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Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Mercy

Why love is overwhelming? Why love is blind? Why do love keeps by my side and I know love is there but why can't I see it? Why this love is so deep, more than I can stand, but makes me far from peace. Why love keeps demanding? Why do I need to beg of love? Why love is overwhelming and yet, love is like ghost? Why if love keeps hiding yet love left some memories? Why the memories so overwhelming? Why it feels so alone when love's gone? Why this alone just overwhelming, too? When will it stop?  If to stop then love be far away and it's in my fault to keep a distance, why do I need mercy from love? I am scared but I love, is that even called as love? All I want to do is to love. Say do I have the mercy just for to love? Do I?

Come and Find Me

I am in beautiful pain. Live in dream world. I am into this deep slumber. It is so dark. I am not kind. I have no courage. My eyes keep closing. Why can't I see you? What should I do? Come and find me, sun. Tell me you need me. Show me the light, again. Give me the warm It is getting cold, here. Tell me I do no wrong. If I wake up, I see you. I am coming and to follow you Come and find me.

I am in the Safest Place

It is hard for me too breathe I fall asleep so I can breathe I was trapped in this dream I was free in this dream Shout without sound Cry without tears They made me They created me Lost in labyrinth Rotten

Half A World Away

All this time I thought I was where I was. I had given my best. For those who are not for me.   Turns out, love will never be there for me. But for those who give only things that are hard to get. I better stand far away.   At least I know who I like to be.