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Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Mercy

Why love is overwhelming? Why love is blind? Why do love keeps by my side and I know love is there but why can't I see it? Why this love is so deep, more than I can stand, but makes me far from peace. Why love keeps demanding? Why do I need to beg of love? Why love is overwhelming and yet, love is like ghost? Why if love keeps hiding yet love left some memories? Why the memories so overwhelming? Why it feels so alone when love's gone? Why this alone just overwhelming, too? When will it stop?  If to stop then love be far away and it's in my fault to keep a distance, why do I need mercy from love? I am scared but I love, is that even called as love? All I want to do is to love. Say do I have the mercy just for to love? Do I?

Come and Find Me

I am in beautiful pain. Live in dream world. I am into this deep slumber. It is so dark. I am not kind. I have no courage. My eyes keep closing. Why can't I see you? What should I do? Come and find me, sun. Tell me you need me. Show me the light, again. Give me the warm It is getting cold, here. Tell me I do no wrong. If I wake up, I see you. I am coming and to follow you Come and find me.

I am in the Safest Place

It is hard for me too breathe I fall asleep so I can breathe I was trapped in this dream I was free in this dream Shout without sound Cry without tears They made me They created me Lost in labyrinth Rotten

Half A World Away

All this time I thought I was where I was. I had given my best. For those who are not for me.   Turns out, love will never be there for me. But for those who give only things that are hard to get. I better stand far away.   At least I know who I like to be.