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As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

to the Kiss

I am losing my lifetime, it feels like the sand hourglass.  Who can tell if I am the person I have been waiting for? I can never see the thing I am longing to. I know it's a delusion. I can hardly want to if it's not real.  The idea of it's not real but it's not a delusion, something beyond the images or dreams. We both have same path and it kills you the more you realized you've been with someone this whole time and can't even see it.  We have too much to sense and yet too difficult to touch.  I have no regrets, even if I see the ending, how I'm drowning to the sand in hourglass.  I have tasted the beauty of love. Nothing can hurt me, anymore, even if my heart is aching and still the body and flesh torture my soul until nothing left, I have kissed the love. It is my peaceful.