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Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

The Apartment

I had a very horror dream last night. It was about a family decided to buy one old apartment building. It almost like they spend their whole money to that building. There was this Chinese restaurant on the front of the lobby. The old man owned the restaurant seemed very angry at the family on the day they're moving-in. The family started to see each of room and they were all studio room size. One of the child actually really interested with the architecture and interior design so she documented most of the rooms. Oddly, she seemed had sensing people were still living inside those empty apartment rooms, like moving shadows. On the next morning, the old man, the owner of that Chinese restaurant still opening in front of the lobby of apartment and the Father started on conversation with him but the family just stayed inside without knowing what were they talking. The youngest child actually started to play with the shadows in the apartment. When the sister caught her, turns out ...

Lifetime

I can live my life thousands times more Be a different person each world Hurt and endure Hating myself at the end and do it all over again I will love you with all my life Be the one for you each world Caring and patience Grown old to die at the end and do it all over again I stop dreaming about you For I love to you too much I don't know how forget you I don't know if we can live another time I stop wishing you all well For I am no longer in your mind But again even we meet in another life I will always love you I can not let you go as I am now letting you let go of me I am not that strong as you are strongly leaving me I don't know what I want as you know really what you want If I am your poison If this world has killed you because of me I will do it all over again That's how much I love you But I know I can't reach you anymore This time only one time I can't wish for another lifetime For we only live once And here I am a...