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As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

2020: Another Series and One Last Time Project

I will make a real book in 2020.

Two Times

For a person like me, love just needs to be careful. I hate to see people think I like the hard way to get such true love. But, this world has showed me it's no longer there. True love for me. It's just a play of understanding, knowing, and then get along. Nothing further. No one told me it's my fault to keep that perspective too long. Until, everything just passing by and keep going by. And me, left behind. Getting hurt and hurting back by mistake or on purpose. Love supposed to be clumsy. Love is not perfect. I should've realized it. Nothing can help me until I see that nothing is right when you fall in love. Like when you thought you can love someone and wait for something in return. Not just wait but to see if love is truly real. Not just protection but real affection. Not just one-sided. It's hurting to learn it's only me who keeps acting I am not okay. But when I fall or fail, And, I can't be the one who needs to only understand. ...