Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder. 

I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed.

The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today.

'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now."

yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness.

We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him.

I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts.

It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our time is not running out, every day can be like this," there I said. He just smiled. 

In my dream, the world is like cotton candy sweet

Last time, we both sat on almost closing-yoghurt cafe on a bench. Something that the money we've spent actually in the night not too much or too small amount. "This cold sour sweet flavors." 

yet sharp with coldness of the storm's ice. 

So many things that I wish I can talk about the yoghurt we both ate, yet, nothing. It's just on my intrusive thoughts. Right when I face to face with him. 

It feels endless but not exhausting.

I never say good bye. I just keep watching him leave me by. I never look back. 

On a loop, a merry-go-round.

 It's nothing like I care if He thought I look cold or odd.  Because I know how much He knows me.

but I just want to stay there, endlessly riding a man-made unicorn, going up and down from the rainbow.

I know, He loves me. And, He knows, I love Him. 

The tears flew out from my eyes, I can't let him see me. But, before I knew it too, He already hold me from my back. 

"We both just silently let this relationship to unfold over time. And, now, you let this to be over."

"I let this relationship to be over. I am sorry."