I leave it to you

If she reads this...

Are you happy?

I wish for my happiness every day.

Are you smiling?

I work so hard to put a smile on my face.

Are you thankful?

I have to keep saying it out loud until I do.

Are you among friends?

I don't have.

Are you having future?

I don't have.

I wish I didn't fool myself.

I wish I can wish something from the past.

I hurt myself.

I can't change.

I have no longer chance.

I thought I don't matter.

In this time or after this time.

I don't matter.

Before you remember me,

I wish I have already gone.

So, you don't need to be so sad.

When you turn your back to see me.

When I'm gone.