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Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Un-Circle

**At School.** I have many friends. I feel like a follower, but that doesn’t mean I can't lead. If there’s a group project and no one is taking charge, I try to share my thoughts and speak up confidently. I know I can lead, but it’s not about wanting to lead; I just want to give attention and get the best grades. But even if I fail, I’m okay with that. I’m not the kind of student who always needs to get perfect results. Because, when I think about it, my intelligence isn't perfect either. No matter how hard I study, I often end up with bad grades. But that doesn’t make my friends distance themselves from me. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m not as smart as most people, but they think I’m good enough to be part of their group. I don’t look tomboyish because I like cute accessories and jewelry. It’s just my nature that tries to protect the people I care about. I don’t really understand relationships, but I don’t expect anything in return. It’s like I want to have friends, bu...
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Three Minutes Forever

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I am celebrating my 777 Days together in love with KINGDOM.  I should thank to people I never met before but I get to know them through internet, since 2021, I guess. Since KINGDOM. It was amazing how it's really like a plant, it grows and keep growing, until it becomes a tree with a strong roots. The journey to really make my promise come true and became real just something like "SHOW AND PROVE". :'D I applied several times to get fancall with KINGDOM and I realized I had to step up from my hiding place and get some interactions with other kingmakers so I can get 'sponsored'. I am looking around through social media and made friends with many kingmakers and we made a group chat. The journey took me a year since HOK4:Dann. I started with 8 albums to 14 albums.  One of kingmaker friend said to me, "This time, pray harder." And, so on this HOK6:Mujin, I followed their ideas: apply in the middle of promotion fansign and pray harder. It means I couldn...
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