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Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Un-Circle

**At School.** I have many friends. I feel like a follower, but that doesn’t mean I can't lead. If there’s a group project and no one is taking charge, I try to share my thoughts and speak up confidently. I know I can lead, but it’s not about wanting to lead; I just want to give attention and get the best grades. But even if I fail, I’m okay with that. I’m not the kind of student who always needs to get perfect results. Because, when I think about it, my intelligence isn't perfect either. No matter how hard I study, I often end up with bad grades. But that doesn’t make my friends distance themselves from me. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m not as smart as most people, but they think I’m good enough to be part of their group. I don’t look tomboyish because I like cute accessories and jewelry. It’s just my nature that tries to protect the people I care about. I don’t really understand relationships, but I don’t expect anything in return. It’s like I want to have friends, bu...
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Three Minutes Forever

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I am celebrating my 777 Days together in love with KINGDOM.  I should thank to people I never met before but I get to know them through internet, since 2021, I guess. Since KINGDOM. It was amazing how it's really like a plant, it grows and keep growing, until it becomes a tree with a strong roots. The journey to really make my promise come true and became real just something like "SHOW AND PROVE". :'D I applied several times to get fancall with KINGDOM and I realized I had to step up from my hiding place and get some interactions with other kingmakers so I can get 'sponsored'. I am looking around through social media and made friends with many kingmakers and we made a group chat. The journey took me a year since HOK4:Dann. I started with 8 albums to 14 albums.  One of kingmaker friend said to me, "This time, pray harder." And, so on this HOK6:Mujin, I followed their ideas: apply in the middle of promotion fansign and pray harder. It means I couldn...
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