Reserve

As I sat on the sofa, I leaned against an invisible shoulder.  I walked quickly right toward him. He also came toward me, so quickly that we almost hit each other's heads. We both laughed. The obstacle was that I couldn’t see what was holding me back today. 'I shouldn’t have run toward you. If I had been a little faster, we could have ended up hitting each other,' he said. I didn’t say anything. I thought the funnier this meeting began, the better it would be. Yet, typical him, he just a mind-reader. I only smiled and replied, "Let's just go walk, now." yet I remained frozen in space and time, just me and emptiness. We're walking to the city park and just went around, nothing really far but our steps actually might count like a mile. Restless just with him. I simply sat in silence, lost in my thoughts. It's nothing like there's no other place we can be. It's just I found my complete and I don't need to find anywhere else. "If only our ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Revenge

Revenge is not justice. 
Not even a redemption. 
It just has to be done. 
And that's mean.
You can not always get what you want. 
But what I want just so you can not always get what you want. 
So be it . 
If for being good to you was not enough. 
Then I will pick the way you always wish for me to do. 
That we know. 
There's no such thing as good. 
Even so, there will be as hope.
As sun always rise every day.
And stars light us every night.
Every breath that we take to still alive.
For you to still walking the streets.
Heaven knows.
Hell knows.
About what I'm capable of.
About all of this kindness.
About there will be no next time. 
About what you wish for.
I know the price.
Still, I'm taking the chance, now.
Because I'm hurt.
To tell there's no wrong of anything.
If it's not God's permission.
It just has to be done.
I know, it's mean.  

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