Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Away from Me

The song starts playing. The dance began.

I can't think of how this dance should be done. I just looked at him. 

Tonight might just be like this. Maybe this affair will all end tonight.

"You will leave me." I don't know why I said that when we danced.

"Yes." He answered.

"Take me with you."

He looked at me. The dance was quite difficult. We turned around and changed partners. We just looked at each other from afar. Until he finally came back to me.

"You are going to leave me." he said.

"I'm not."

"I am not yours."

I know. I knew from the start, he didn't have to reveal it.

We kept on dancing until I felt nauseous. 

We parted again. 

This time I was like a very strong dizziness. If I don't pull over, I might fall. I quickly pulled over and walked out of the dance hall.

It's always like this. I walk alone at the hallway.

"Where did you go?"

He immediately picked me up. 

"Let me go." I cried while walk away from him. 

"Don't leave me."

I won't. I would go with you.... if you let me. 

The horse carriage was running in the cold night. My heart is like shattered into pieces. 

Why did I leave him behind like that?

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