Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Defenseless

They're the kind that want her to become what they want her to be.
by telling them what to wear, how to have their hair styled, how they act. 
They don't respect her the way she should be respected. 
Even though she's comfortable around other guys and has no problem playing with their emotions a tiny bit
when she doesn't have affectionate feelings towards them
But with the guy she's feeling for is around, 
she doesn't know what to do, is afraid to do anything, and just freezes. 
She's afraid of speaking up, fearing that something horrible would happen 
She hates feeling that way

 She loves to tease guys
mess around with their heads a little bit and doesn't have trouble being around them. 
She starts having feelings for a guy and it scares her a bit. 
She wants to dress up, gussy herself up and be more womanly for him, 
She wants to impress him. 
She starts feeling nervous and giddy around him.
She decides and tries to play it off and be her typical self
She was had love, but has been burned badly, 
She never wants to be hurt again. 
it backfires and she falls all over him. 
So she's trying her best to keep her distance and not fall for him. 
She seems like she's never been in love before
She hates feeling so defenseless that way

 She feels that this is happening again with her newest guy, 
She decides to put her foot down and prevent herself from falling for the same trap. 
She tries to speak up and be her own self, 
But he thinks she wants more of his attention, 
it comes out all wrong. 

 Emotion, defenselessness, passion and fear all at once.

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