am I too Mean?

Sometimes I can't go no longer

It hurts me more

I used to have this dream

Yet, the dream walk away from me

As I keep chasing it

The chasing we through the storm

Fall and rise, push and pull

Now I lost to the void

I know You didn't know

I wonder if You think I became cruel tonight

I shall bid You good night but I am not. 

I don't know what I do, now.

I can't see the world be so empty

When there's You

The dream I wanted long ago

I see in You

And somehow the happiness never meant for me

But the pleasure I get

To finally see You have the strength

If it is requires me to not in the future

Then let is shall be

To be in the now and knowing You

See love surrounded for You

I have my pleasure.

I shall bid You be happy, now

I shall teach You go on without me

As everyone does

To finally leave me and let me enjoy myself

Alone, yes

As I meant to be

The world for me

Not for You

For You, I will give the stars

To light You way

To the future I meant not to be there

Now, am I mean to You for be like this?

I shall bid you good night, instead.

I shall.

If someday You read this, tell me.

Because I'm certain my intention never want to hurt You

I am born to give unfortunate 

And I shall not give it to You

For violins keep playing

And music makes You wild on the floor

Nothing can stop You

Bid me farewell, if You read this

My tears are hidden for You

My heart and my soul only for You

Abandon me at the end

Then it shall give me the pleasure

And I shall forget

I will keep forget 

I used to be happy

But God forbid me

There I tell You the truth

This truth is already mean to me

So, tell me, now, if I am too mean?