Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Today's Illness

 This is my first time to get really hurt all over my body.

I think it's getting really hurt, this time. 

It makes me want to write more. I am hiding from my pain, right now. I don't know when it comes back so I'm writing this, now. 

It feels like I can't control my head. It's like my head knows it's really painful and it wants to sleep. 

And, I almost fell in front of the house but I arrived safely, right on time. I couldn't hold the pain, I need to go to sleep, I closed my eyes and it stayed. 

It hurts so bad, I cried. This is my first time I screamed and crying. 

I couldn't help myself. 

One thing I know, it feels like I am scared when the weather gets colder. I think I won't make it when the winter is coming. 


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