Today's Illness

 This is my first time to get really hurt all over my body.

I think it's getting really hurt, this time. 

It makes me want to write more. I am hiding from my pain, right now. I don't know when it comes back so I'm writing this, now. 

It feels like I can't control my head. It's like my head knows it's really painful and it wants to sleep. 

And, I almost fell in front of the house but I arrived safely, right on time. I couldn't hold the pain, I need to go to sleep, I closed my eyes and it stayed. 

It hurts so bad, I cried. This is my first time I screamed and crying. 

I couldn't help myself. 

One thing I know, it feels like I am scared when the weather gets colder. I think I won't make it when the winter is coming.