Lost Sight, Found Strength

The path is so dark and dim, but Julie keeps walking. She is scared, yet her adrenaline makes her look back several times, urging her to walk faster with each step. She wonders why she can't move faster and then realizes it's just her thoughts getting wilder the longer she's on the road. She shouldn't have chosen this path—terrified and confused. She's already halfway through. It sucks. The only way is to adapt, over time. She has one more block, two more, and again she convinces herself it's just one more step to her destination. She's no longer afraid when she starts looking at the sky instead of the road. The evening feels scarier when it's right in front of our eyes, but when it's above, the stars are beautiful. The cold air on her skin feels warmer as her mind grows calmer. Gently, she realizes that she's no longer worried. In fact, she's arrived, in no time. -- I think loneliness comes from the mind. It's not about being surrounded ...
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Do you know why it's hard to say goodbye? Because we afraid if our memories might not be able to remember them, rightly. The fact is, goodbye means good. No matter how hard.
~Aurora Esterlia

Divergent, Mine

There's no Four in my experience but he was Peter, and only him. He was very something. He's never changed. He always the same. But, I still found our eyes looked to one another. He seems very happy with his friends while I just standing far from him, waiting he came. He didn't want be with me. But, when there's a hunting event, crowds everywhere, I was so scared, he was there, made fun of me and showing off. While I failed, he also knew , "You never change, either."

I just didn't know, he always be around me. "If you hates me so much, why you always around me? You know, we know you always win, why just not let me go?" He never answered those questions because he knew I'm the one who need him, for all this time. He hurts me, but still I need to see him. He was something. I couldn't explain.

"Do you mad at me?" Last thing I asked, "As long as you're still in my memory, you always be with me. No matter how hard you want to leave me, you can't leave me." He seems a ghost in my dream. He reacts as an enemy that I knew he never want to.

If only I knew how to rescue him from me. I knew it's about Peter and Tris relationship. I wish I was Tris.

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